preoccupied

i'm thinking about having an open hse this raya
and by this raya i mean this saturday
and by this saturday i mean the 3rd of october

was looking forward to it
but unfortunately, circumstances change

my big fat ginormous orange cat is sick

my mom and i brought him to the clinic 2 days ago (monday)
and he's been warded ever since
the doctor said he's been in pain for quite some time now, and we were all too busy, too blind to see...
he has gingivitis, a low platelet count, not to mention a problem with his kidney
all these can be associated with his ageing
he's 8 years old
he'll be 9 in february

at home, he hasnt been eating much
in fact, he lost 1.6 kg already since 2 months ago

the family's not in the happiest of mood
because we're all worried sick about him
especially my mom

so, i dont think its the best of times to host an open house
i dunno
we'll see

but even if the open hse does happen
we'll probably serve normal senang-masak-cepat-cepat-banyak-banyak-food
the usual mi-hun, kuew tiaw and apentah

dont expect too much
we're preoccupied

and old pic of the king of the house

Raya 2009 =D

Raya was a blast
not the best raya i've experienced in my short 19 years of life
but still, raya is raya
and the worst of rayas is the best of days
so ill take what i can get
and run like the wind! hehe

anyways, this raya - 2009 - as usual(and i hope that this trend continues),
we balik-ed kampung to my mom's side
at batu 7 1/2, kampung asahan, kuala selangor!

sampai kampung kul 7.25
nasib baik dah prepare the necessary air and biskut2 utk berbuka dlm kete
pastu masing2 xtau frequency stesen radio ikim ke jakim ke apentah
soooo mcm bajet2 dah gelap tu, buke! ahaha

sampaaaaai je kampung, makan, mandi, smayang
jgn harap laaa nak lepak2 tgk astro(ye, kampung aku ade astro, sbb nenek aku suke tgk wrestling! woot woott)
terus gi bekerje

ok menyimpang sat,
every raya, nenek aku akan mengerahkan anak2 nye, cucu2 nye, tetapi bukan menantu2 nye
utk membuat kerja2 mengemas rumah, memasak, mengecat, mengangkat barang, membuang sampah, membaja kelapa sawit dan segala2 yg terpikir olehnya
last year, pada malam raya, saya mengecat umah kampung tu dr isyak saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaampaaaaaai laa kul 12.30AM
itupon sbb hujan
saya pasti, kalau tidak hujan, confirm akan sambung sampai ke pagi raya
tp sila jgn salah faham
nenek saya x kejam, cume mode "CANTIKKAN RUMAH" die tersgt amat bangat extreme
ahaha tp apepon, kami segala buruh2 beliau amat menyayangi beliau! =D

ok back to the future,
antara kerja2 yg dilakukan adelah spt membuat ketupat, palas, lepat, rendang ayam dan daging
tp 1 thing laa, kalau bwat kerja ramai2
sume menyemak dlm dapur
sumpah SERONOK!
lg2 kalau ade mulut2 banjar yg x mkn saman mcm acik, mak andak, alang, bondaku (mak long) dan wani
ntah sape2 laa yg diorg kutuk semlm
tp sumpah seronok mendgr! hahah
if u think i have a bad mouth, u havent met my aunts!!!
ngahahahaha

walaupon mulut kitorg bergerak dok ngutuk org
tgn2 kitorg pon bergerak gak melipat daun palas, membalut lepat, nyumbat pulut, menggaul rendang, melayukan daun pisang
and juz so u know, we made
220 ketupats
ntah brapa byk lepat dan palas
1 kawah rendang ayam
1 kawah rendang daging
XD
because nenek punye mode "BAGI MAKAN KAT CUCU" pon extreme gak
she loves to feed us! ngeee =D




anddd we have a new addition to the family!
nur farisha airina bt ucu(ok x ingat name ucu, ingat pangkat je)
she just celebrated her 1st raya! =D
she's cucu number 35 or 34..ntah

adik dan abang

after all the hard work
bout 2am, cari parking! n tidoooooooooooooooo

dan bangun agak lambat
beratur utk gune toilet
ade 2 toilet, 6 families! u do the math! haha
rushing bukan main sampai terlupe mandi sunat aidilfitri
damn. xpe2, tahun depan bwat. pasang alarm awal2
hahaha
had breakfast(NOT break fast)
ate rendang daging! SEDAPPPPP! lepat pon sedap
ketupat agak keras, palas terlalu padat
rendang ayam liat nak mati sbb pakai ayam pencen..hahahah

gi surau smayang sunat aidilfitri
x dgr sgt khutbah tahun ni
tahun lepas nye best, imam siap nangis2 lg
tahun ni isi kandungan khutbah kurang menarik perhatian
lol mati aku kalo jakim nmpk ape aku tulis ni! ahahah

lepas smayang, aktiviti kemuncak hari raya!
the HIGLIGHT of the year

the FORGIVENESS part
our family tradition is we have nenek sitting first at the front,
then the pak and mak longs will ask forgiveness from nenek and from each other, then sit next to nenek
followed by the ngahs, udas, tehs, andaks, itams, anjangs, alangs, aciks, ucus, 1st cucu till the smallest cucu capable of walking
hahah
sume org beratur according to pangkat and age..huhu
sumpah i LOVE this tradition we've maintained
effect die perghhhh..makan dalam!..haha
during this asking-of-forgiveness session, u'll see bermcm2 emotion displayed
ppl crying asking for forgiveness, the cucus arguing and laughing because theyre stepping on other ppls' kains(we kneel while we ask for forgiveness) dll

immediately after that, mereka2 yg sudah bekerja akan distribute DUIT RAYA!!
=D


then, we had the family photo session!
we took photos with all of us together
then company by company(ikut family)
tp this year lupe bwat tema "anak2", "menantu2!" dan "cucu2!"
time ni plak, mmg hiruk pikuk kecoh habis sampai 1 kampung bole dgr
ahahaha

6 families! 4 families missing

mengajar nenek aku the peace sign... peace yawww

lepas tu, kitorg cousin2 beramai2 gi JAMBATAN!!
kampung aku ade sungai! kampung ko, bile lg? =P
minah2 tu sume bercamwhore di sanun

antara gamba fav aku..comel gile adam pukul buntut wani..hahaha





haha comel je asha tengking adam




adam: "got MILK?" hahah XD

then balik dan MAKAN! lepas makan, majoriti tidurrrr!
dan majoriti itu of course akan termasok tuan hamba
tertido sampai kul 6
bangun2, cari makan lg
ahahaha XD
any free time dlm 2 mlm dok kat kampung adelah diisikan dgn aktiviti MAKAN!! =D

nak balik the next day, mmg berat bontot
syg gilebabidowhh kampung ku kuala sgor! =D
dan nenek ku Alimah, the Superwoman! =D
mak sedara dan bapak sedara segala!
cousin2 kecoh semua
dan suasana hari raya
=D

byk lagi nak dicito ekk
tp dah terlanjut sudaa
will update more! =D
more pics on fb!

and oh yea
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN TO ALL
have a great one aite
=D

LOL

i'm supposed to be blogging bout RAYA
but i cant seem to upload my pics properly
so allow me to do something pointless


tadaaaaa~~

cant stop laughing at the 1st pic!
LMFAO!!! XD

sengal ubi bakar ali

lately, everytime i go online
there are 2 sites that i must visit
nooooo, not porn
(x elok tgk bende x snonoh di dlm bulan puasa. note: bulan puasa)
hahaha anyway, the 2 sites that i'm talking about are actually
www.lelong.com.my
www.mudah.my
yeap, theyre like auction and advertising sites for new or secondhand items
(refer: ebay =P)

and the 2 things i search online are the 2 things i desire most(for now)
hahaha
a handphone
and a camera
ni tgh sangap gile kot sbb pakai fon yg xde memory card n nokia 3310
GO.FIGURE!!

anywho, remember how i mentioned above that i've been visiting these sites too often
and that i may (MAY) be addicted to them

well, it seems that God has sent me a lil message about this

a discrete, yet very effective message

and let me tell u this, messages from God doesnt come cheap
lol

here's the scoop
just 5 mins ago, as i was searching for a cheap yet OKlaaa camera,
i accidentally placed a bid on a camera that was out of my budget

amik kau.terus seram sejuk aku dok mikirkan nak bayar camne..
ngahahahahaha


bidding for the camera ends 1 and a half hours from now
and i'm HOPING/PRAYING that i get outbid


pleaseeee God, message received!!!!
can u pleaaaaaaaaaaseeee press "CTRL Z"(Undo)




for people with money, can i be ur friend?
pretty pleaaaaaassseeee!

ngahahahahahahaha
pathetic-nesssssss

numb

in the past 30 days, i've had about 3 emotional breakdowns or meltdowns
and that's 3 too many

i.dont.do.breakdowns

this semester is really taking its toll on me

it's bad enough that i have to carry my own weight
but now, i'm carrying other people's burden as well

i dont know if my fragile frame can take it
its getting harder to breathe

all i want to do when i get home is to sleep
sleep it allllllllllllll off
temporarily escape
away from all the mess

but no, that was not meant to be
there is no such thing as escape

i've got work to do
though a different kind of work
but work i did
its unbearable. but nonetheless necessary

in the past 48 hours, i have slept for only 4 hours
my head's spinning like a top
any time now, it'll explode into a million tiny pieces


eventually, u break





and when u break. u pick urself up

u glue ur broken shattered pieces back together


u look urself hard in the mirror
and u say "suck it up. deal with it"

u take a few mins to compose urself
breathe in. breathe out. breathe in. breathe out

u numb urself so that u can hardly feel anything
u put ur mask on so that people'll think ur okay

and u crack a fake smile

and u walk out that door as the same person that walked in

minus all the emotional mess



again,
i.dont.do.breakdowns.